FW - Procrastinators Unite! ...Tomorrow!

I really do want to get my work done in a reasonable amount of time, but sometimes I just get into such an apathetic mood that nothing gets done. Kind of like my previous Free Write post where I talked about how I hate being spacy. This one's a lot like that, except this one deals with my purposeful spaciness - my addiction to procrastination!

My problem is that procrastination has almost always worked in the past. It really is a problem. I have seen the successes of it and the failures of it, and all of that experience rolled together does not, as of yet, seem to be secure enough to merit a drastic change in my behavior. Don't get me wrong - I'm all for changing yourself in order to become better - but you can't make a definite, permanent change to yourself mentally, emotionally, or physically unless you believe in what you are doing.

I know that better planning and performance will make my life less stressed...but I don't know that deep down inside me. I hope to have soon an epiphany on a grand scale that will knock me back down to terra firma. Unfortunately that has not happened yet; consequently, here I sit at 11:30 in the evening the night before my first paper is due in this class. I have not yet begun the actual writing of the paper.

Doesn't anyone know what I'm going through?